Can I just do it here? I really wanna put it into actual spoken words but I don’t wanna give another person majorly bad vibes tonight. Haha.
A lot has been happening for the past few weeks since 2013 started. 2012 was already deadly. I won’t even make a list about the misfortunes I’ve been through because it might never end. The thing is I’ve been really trying. Trying to somehow get by. Heck. I’m even surprised why I’m still alive, if I didn’t know better. You have no idea how I’ve been feeling. Well, I had someone who knows how it feels, but she left. Gone the easy way out of all the problems. Left me for good.. without even saying goodbye. And I bet she doesn’t know how that feels. But I don’t blame her. She was sick. I love her so I can’t hold on to that.
What I’m really saying is that can the fucking world give me a fucking break? Like seriously. I don’t get why everything is happening. Karma won’t even suffice for an adequate explanation because I know all I’ve caused has been accounted for along time ago. I do not deserve this fuckery.
I’m trying my best to be happy. I don’t wanna be all negatron all my life. But c’mon. A guy can only take so much pain before it changes him completely. Ayun lang. Salamat.
Before you judge me, know my story. Not from other people, let it come from me.